It's Been A While Since I Posted

it has been 1 week since brandon broke up with me
i dont know what i should be feeling right now:

- hatred
- anger
- sadness
- remorse
- hurt
- i really do not know

i guess what i feel is nothing at all, i am numb
numb from any real emotion, all i know is that i miss him
i miss a lot of things about him
and i dont think he misses me at all
i dont think that he thinks about me or cares about me
and most of i dont think he loves me
the only emotion i really for this guy is love
COMPLETE UNCONDITIONAL LOVE
i want him back, he doesnt want me back
maybe the love im experiencing is unrequited love
there's never really a moment when i dont think of you brandon
maybe one day we can be together again, and be happy
and maybe one day you would want to be with me again
i miss you, i love you, and i want to be with you

OH TWILIGHT COMIC HAHA!

hey, i am happy (:

yep, just as the title say, i am happy now
things are finally the way i want them to be
school is still consuming my life but it okay
i seriously do not mind it one bit
i'm going to be double majoring which should be pretty exciting
i missed blogging, too bad i have nothing to blog about yet
well, we'll see ... imma start updating again
about to go run some errands at walmart
need to pay summer school tuition
and i need to get the department chair to sign my application
one class tmrw then heading out to LIFE PLAZA ONCE AGAIN (:

i really did miss that place, good memories
and we're about to be making more

Random

had a pretty good day today:

1. english class was cancelled, yay
2. found out i got a C on my psych exam, not yay
3. aced the map quiz of ssci165 plus the extra credit, yay
4. got chipotle for lunch with isaiah, brian and josh, yay
5. helped brian register for chaffey college summer school, yay
6. finished reading the assigned reading for psych, yay

currently taking a break from reading
going to be studying for social sciences in a little bit
planning on going to see DRAKE perform how exciting
isaiah and i still need to buy our tickets on friday

Friends, Thai Food & Piercings

afternoon consisted of:

1. meeting up at isaiah's

2. drove and ate at mix bowl (thai food)//people present:

- me
- lizette
- chantelle
- tim
- brian cacho
- isaiah
- steven
- brian hernandez
- glenn
- jaron

3. drove to king of spades to get piercings

4. drove back to isaiah's house just in time to watch the Laker game

5. everyone was practicing jerking while i read and watched

6. brian cacho was the only successful one to reject

7. then isaiah, chantelle jerked once - super cute


maybe i should practice jerkin... chyea right !

oh, & pictures from tonight:



driving in traffic



oh what? exactly 130,000 miles



nina's industrial



brian's industrial



and chantelle's industrial




brian trying on lizette's sandal... SUCCESS !



me and lizette; check that lip ring though



me reading "thing fall apart"- achebe



me and lizette just one more time (:

-- great day, had fun, only drawback is lakers losing to fckn utah

First Day of Spring Quarter

The day started off pretty good
isaiah and i found parking and was able to go to all our classes
it was pretty hot today, and isaiah's car was even hotter
my classes were overall good, except for my last psyc class
i couldnt really pay attention cause i was dozing off, i was tired
teachers were all chill and the students in the class was chill
made a to do list when isaiah and i got back to headquarters
an i finished everything on my long list and now all i have to do is read
sigh so much reading in all my classes, at least it will keep me safe
safe from being bombarded of thoughts of you, or me thinking too much
afternoon was spent eating, photobooth, walmart,and victoria gardens
errands like picking up shanyssa's board from bennington & giving it back
seeing pancho and romeo again made me really happy (:
then now coming home and starting to do my reading workload

le sigh;

hm look at me and lizette's silly faces (:

Crazy Stuff Happened

karen and i decided to get pedicures today, yay feet are pretty
head home and decide to go to montclair mall to go shopping
while driving on the 60W, i decide to switch to the carpool lane
there was a truck in front of me and it was carrying glass and other stuff
right when i was about to change lanes, i guess one of its tires goes out
and the truck looses control starts swerving the glass panels shatter
glass is everywhere, hit my windshield and was about to hit me & car in front of me
hit the breaks and the truck barely misses us and the camry in front of us
somehow that truck manages to swerve from the carpool lane to the right shoulder
he didnt hit any other car, which i find to be amazing
cause he practically lost control and glided to that shoulder lane
after that, karen aldrich and i all grab the rosary that hangs in my car all the time

-- god saved us , and thats why i am able to write this blog

Julian's Kickback

wow, my night was pretty interesting haha
ended up driving from moreno valley past 11:20pm
getting to diamond bar almost 12pm, kickback was... (rhymes with black)
then from there drove back to rancho, dropped off jomar
drove to chris's house to pick him up then straight to brian's
ate some snacks, set up the hookah, and chilled until 3am
overall a good night, a chance for me to relax from finals
and to be able to finally enjoy my spring break !
i think im going to go to bed now, ate is already sleeping
she is sooo cute when she sleeps, busy day tmrw if we decide to go


can't stop, won't stop