Confessions of a Sad 18 Year Old Girl

ehh afternoon was bien, caught up with high school friends old and new.

night was good, pow and his friend then dealt with some business down the street

come home watch confessions of a shopaholic with my mom. she also tells me the bad news. i guess she has to take an epidural steriod thingy tmrw at kaiser at 1pm. she said it will relieve her back pain but there are side effects. i read the paper and there were bad side effects: increased blood pressure, increased blood sugar, increased chance of getting osteoperosis, increase chance of getting depression, chance of not being able to work er function for 6 months. thats just too much shit right there.

first of all my mom already has all that shit and now if she takes this epidural, then there could be a chance of doubling what she already has?! and for what? so that her back will stop hurting. this is complete bullshit, im gonna kill the doctor who ordered her to get this damn shot. that guy is an asshole anyways. i hope she doesnt go through with it, she has until tmrw afternoon at 1pm to decide.

i love you mom, i know youre always in pain, and i can feel it. but if you go through with this, and you get those side effects, youre just going to be taking fucking pills for the rest of your life. and for the back pain, it could go away, and you'd only have to take medicine for that. i love you mama, and i dont want to see you suffer anymore, i just hope you make the right decision.